the norm mondays

dint go for comm skills. urggs. simply cant get outta bed. dint hear the antique clock ringin either. it did ring. slept at 1am. how amazing. for the first time!
had my period. "great" monday to start with.
went to sch without much mood. least the best thing was that i met up with glo for lunch and also zahidah came for engg sci! wasnt in the mood to talk to anyone elses thou. comp studies was crap. he went on talk and talkin!! uber pissed just sittin right there. dozed off for a while.
i'm just happy that sch ended early. am home early. (: on my way home i saw that guy. wearin CRAP yellow tee. ha! boyish tootsie look. sch ended well with it. smiles.
had salad for dinner with mom. and more satc for me.
it matters so much that now i'm pretty numbed by it. i dont know if it really does. i'm tryin to convince myself and maybe her that 'it' matters to us. there wasnt any reply.. it's a question mark.
there's the nike talk on friday pple! at the dorm thangy. try-out of their nike shoes. ((:
he asked me bout the aft. still in dilemma.

surf it

• surf and sweat ((: i woked up at 7am. was late.
• slacked arnd...
• cheered the guys
• tanned with jazz and jil
• cheered more guys -jw got 3rd overall in institutional men.
• took over meixuan's place and i surfed for yixue.. and he ran. surfing is fun! it's bitch when they kept goin aft THEIR lifejacks. balls
• i fake to be a 24 yr old. when i look younger than yixue. i can memorise others i/c well. ha! ((:
• more injuries of others came. accident happened. plssssssss take care of urself gurls. i was so bout to tear when i see her in pain.
• yixue and me got in first in 'mixed open'. ntu cocked up. but well, they said so. so so! i'm sorrie for whtsoeva...i felt so bad. she prob complained to jy or wht. but aft consultin the pple left. wht reubs said kinda shocked me. it's a fact yes but it sounded i'd "gl". hahs..if i were in their position will they happily give them to us? judgin by wht i know her. NO WAY. well, she tried to be nice.
• dinner and went to reubs place to put the cartons at his place. muffin's [his dog] is so cutee la.
• watch some flash made by dennis, it's swt. awwww. ha! so who will make a flash for me for my bdae? with those flowers...and stuff. i'm just touched by wht he did even it wasnt to me.
• missed mumbo photo session. saw qing zhou, biru, zhijian and jianshun at s&s. it's great seeing them like finally, but miss the kids anyhos. qingzhou's alwys doin sai kang... carryin the surfboards from end to start. ha!

drained.

gosh, i'm seriously drained. felt kinda shitty durin trng. sudden shot up of giddyness. -_- got over with it. exchangin of baby boat of senior. rowed only one set with e seniors. darn. and last few rounds with juniors. just have to remind myself to twist and all. but the juniors are gettin better. i see myself in them too. now i get it by the bendin of rowing arm when ure suppose to strnged it. jil got hit by the radar thrice. poor thang. sun was darm shitty pls! so cloudy. prayin hard tmr's sun's like HOT HOT HOT!! ((:
went to have tau huay aft trng with jazz, jil and jw. 3Js ehs. hahas.. then they left for dinner. jazz and i stayed to finish our food. was still too full for dinner. so decided to jus go tp ntuc to get instant noodles. and we ended up shoppin for some stuff for tmr. how thoughtful are we! jazz's so auntie, she likes to shop arnd those auntie area... like vege...blahhs. ha! when we were happily laughin at sth and turned to this section, this 'fortune teller' pointed at us sayin ahh you will marry early, you will not. she's an old lady, sayin her husband has got cancer...blahh. ooggays. to tell one dollar per person. jazz paid 6buckerros for it. another kinda soul like chia suli. gawdd. lalala she went on...seeing me and jazz. told her i'm born in the yr or rabbit. wht time? night... and the old woman said it aint good cos in the night they come out and play or fight with monkey and all! at that point i so wanna laugh right in her face! i dint...jus looked away. how embarrassing la... she was talkin so loudly. say gyss schmate, junior prefect. tried to cover my face. goodness gracious me!! everywhere we went in that level.. she's arnd that corner. ran away from her.. on our way to get bread, saw liongyang and jerrick. fool! jerrick called me majiam i'm so close to him.
great mind thinks alike i'd say!! hahahs.. exchanged lotsa stuff durin the train ride. *grins*
i guess i'd really gotta try to be nice. but things just get on my nerves at times. i've got it ultimate limit in me...
went to grandma hse aft. spoke to her downstairs. her leisure time. went up to acc coussie and nephew. watch simple life with him... chatted with him. ((: my darling. borrowed coussie's season 5-7 cos satc. i dont noe why there's 7 but wth.. there is just take! borrowed alfie too. ha!
satc marathon?... -winks
later.

mood of love

i'm just turning kookoo or i dont noe whts. in the mood of love...songs. sway with moon river.
just finished satc season 4. ohhh aidan and big are gone. howeva the departure of theirs were nice. esp big's. and the song that they danced with. moon river. just makes me wanna get on my feet and sway with the music. it's really nice but sad.. awww. just cant hurry comp season 5's coming up. woots. why cant it be like days of our lives?... godnoes how many episodes they've got. simply cant have enough of satc ((: this thang for high heel shoes! carrie look so gorgeous wearin it. she's got that sorta style wearin it. and of cos... aidan. john corbett, he aint hunkish or whtsoeva, but he's just like this perfect bf la. sweet.
i've finally opened up 'the sound of music' vcd that i've got as one of my bdae gift 2 yrs ago. hvnt open up and watch it. thou before that i've watch umpteen times of it. it's sorta kidish to watch a show that many times. it sure make a difference when i watch it now. it's from them
talked to babeh bout lotsa stuff just now. felt so much better... and others. guess it all takes initiative, acceptance of others.

first time ever..

it's the first time that none of my parents has got money to even give me the rest of the allowance. been living eatin instant noodles myself. well, it's better than nothing. gawdd, and the thought of parents givin red packets durin cny? guess they'll be thinking where to get it.
sch..and progg's a real headache. i'd better dl the programme and practise more. sean's helpin me out alot. am thankful for that. chunyan was at the oppo class irritating me. she sure perked me up.
came home and wanted to go for a run. but i've gotta bath my dog, he was stinkin up the place. ha! dad just wanna leave him to me. so yea, i bathed my baby! sang birthdae song to him in the toilet. just me and him. isnt that nice?
anyhos, am glad that things are alright! -phews. directors are nice ehs. ;]

is there a possibilty that when you're so close that you've got nth much to talk?
but then again, you so enjoy each other company?

ghost town

there's a ghost in everyone.
it cld prolly be someone arnd you.
someone you like or so on.
you'd just sense it when it's near you...
unknowingly.

relaxing time...

so i slept at 5.45am this morning and woke up at 7.15am and rushed for lecture.
was tryin to understand wht he was teaching, but still. i dont understand it. =\ pouts.
another lect was bout electromagnetism, magnetism flux... blahhs. similiar to o's physics but it's more chiem.
went to tan aft sch. sun was shiokedelic ((: met gloria when tracy came to find hongwei. goshh i miss the shortttie! hahas.. and Ivan hit the pool. yes that SA officer. whoooas. is he too heavy to swim or whts? but he sure do look sexeh in trunks. ;x shhhheshhh
meet the two darlings aft. ate and now am at cp's language elearning lab. on our way here we met mr yap mc! my favvv lect last sem. and babeh was so irritatin and made fun or cute mr yap. hahas. i seriously miss his lects and him lots.
sleepyyy...later

ur arses will bleeeeed

i'm uber pissed aft trng started. you dont just count to urself. if you dont count why shld i. darn. coughin aft... *roll eyes* bags went missing. lousy security... the atheletic guys found it in guys toilet. seriously hope that e darnfucking person's asshole will bleed till his blood runs dry. ur thang will friggin hell ROT! things arent safe arnd...locker's the best? pretty surprised that diana was still quite chirpy. jil farted when za was debreifing... muahhas! it sure was loud jil! she acted darn cool la. and fanned it away. gawddd.
that bloody dinner place is seriously gettin on my nerves. i'll just quit joinin the guys for dinner. my grandma can cook and serve faster la pls!...even when she's goin 80! hard up money AUNTIESSS. they'll be happy if u call em xiaojie. they'll take their own swt time if one of us call auntie. plss... get a life man!... u women are gettin old. *snorts*
the two ladehhs. everything's gnna be alright ya babes. that chewy whteva her name is prob scaring u lil ones. i dont see wht's the biggie deal. not as if u guys ran away or whts. balls. cheer up yea ((: it's gnna be alright.

give me more time, i dont know how long i will need. but i do treasure it.

darnit

done with one comm skills icas. 2 more to go. one grp work another individual-book review and website. shall try to finish it aft trng.
just when i'm about to clear my table to head to bed. opened up my organiser and realised i've got cramer's rule test durin math tut. shucks. i'm so dead. my notes are blank. was sick last tues. damnit! flippin thru textbk for examples. equizzes and assesments are 30% of overall. damnit. not hopin to flunk this either.
why do i have gastric pain at this time!!! shall really watch wht i eat. and no more chilli. darnit.
back to cramer's rule... yadayada.. one more dae to meet the gurls. am i happy or wht. while waitin for em i've gotta study for c prog test. balls i'm so goin nuts. del asked me to club on fri or sat. temptation ehs.. but nahhs. there's trng on sat. ((:
later.

the nearness of *you..

It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me
Oh no
It's just the nearness of you
It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation
Oh no
It's just the nearness of you
--the nearness of you by norah jones.

i've lost that sort of feeling. nearness of someone. well prolly my dear babeh. (:
but as for a guy, nahh. ha! but i sure do miss that kinda feeling.
bad gastric agn. too many pineapple tarts. only manage to get outta bed at 12.45pm. cabbed to sch for math lect and comp studies. those two that i've got warnin letter. and hrd from zahidah that engg sci lect called out my name and described me durin lecture. ermms. that's so not needed cans. wasnt feelin well and headed str home aft. david walked with me to macs and i asked him to stone outside clubroom to wait for his trng. bawahahs, better to be early [an hr early] i'd better start on the abstract thang for comm skills. yikes.
anyhos, i've got open hse pics uploaded.. some others like, su's bdae, ken darlin's bdae that wld be up soon yupps.
ciaos

marrvelous yesterd'

-great end to the open hse. (will upload the pics soon)
-tried jil's pineapple tarts. -slurps
-frisbee and more foreign bodies for me!!! [i loove the way the seniors shake their booootie! it's 'ass-xellent']
-dislike the stage arts "tuo diao" thang. well they move good.. but the "song".. -_-"
-sch symphonic band played all the songs in the sound of music. sang along with it with esther and jil. hahs
-being the volleyball picker in the "fountain" flow. it's not everytime you can get into nyp's fountain thang aiights. *smirks*
-got esther's 10 pacs of mac chilli sauce outta macs. ha! ((:
-dipped in the pool with jil, jane and darren. right least there's lesser guys. need a tan badly
-rushed off to town for nephew's bdae dinner at marche. he's my 9 yr old darling. got smashed in his face. kewwl la.
-went to changi area karoke session.
-sound of planes and many many stars. enjoyin time sittin alone, apart from others.

the balcony or the karoke area, you can have a clear view of the planes that are landin and they're just right above me. i miss takin a plane. flyin far far away. i miss watchin planes. the stars was DAMN clear. my guess is that it's aquarius. shld have taken up astronomy...saw orion belt anyhos. that's the only one that i can recognise. sang westlife songs with nephew. ((: this lady sang 'smtimes when we touch' closed my eyes and sang it...lotsa things just ran thru my mind. wells -shrugs-
kpo-ed and ask how old is my cousin's maid. thought she's 20+ or her mid 20s. she's gnna be 20 this yr!! and i'm 18?!?! i feel so...i dont noe. she's 19+ and out overseas earnin money for her family. she can read and sing better chinese than i do. goshh. prolly her family's poor that she's gotta work. but i feel so useless compared to her. and i dont like havin thought of others, that i'm your employer and you're the maid. that sort, asked her to sing along in westlife songs. she knows it =] she's sooo caring and all. wish she's my maid. i wishh.
outta here, it's another late night. i wanna swim! *snorts*
later

piss/peaceful day

cuttin the cake wit babeh.. ((:


us in the toilet...
------------------------

no idea whtsup with me. i'm pissed bout every that i dont like to see or do.
worst when we dint finish doin gym on thurs. gurls not counting. it gets softer and softer every trng. balls. whteva~
pissed with indian lil boy who plays in mrt train. pissed with couples.
HA! see.. it's jus everything. whts more when john low tries to rub it in on everything. urggs.

apparantly wanted to surprise the birthdae princess. but... the two kukus are seriously not good with surprises. omigod. the two gurls met before time and our princess was chauffeured to town. so she knew wht we got her. she likes it. *grins* it's worth spendin that. and our dear brud called the birthdae gurl lettin her know she's gettin a cake. -_- manns. and he left the candles at home!! so i went arnd askin for candles. that's like so pathetic. but this nice manager in tcc was kind enough to give me a tiny candle. so su's like a yr old? hahas. ((:

even thou it's su's bdae...i prolly ate the most! -frowns- did 200 situps and pushups for nth. pizza hut, cartel ice cream, starbucks frap caramel with choco chip cookie, macs med fries.

cabbed back home with lousy cab driver.. that step on the break aft a few meter drive. gawdd, i was so gnna puke and was havin cab-sick from the moment i got in. till now i still feel like pukin.

back to sch later, followed by a dip in the pool. rush off to town for nephew's bdae dinner.

shant go on. later

beauty queen of being 18

happy birthday su babeh** ((: e beauty queen of being 18
wheeehooos. ure so legal to do anythang now babeh. shall party soon yays. looooove u.

yellow pineapple tarts

yummie. mom's starting to make pineapple tarts. so anyone who wld like to order, can approach me yea. ((: it's the new yr goodies that make me look fwd to it. other than that cny wld totally suck. the followin week wld then be my CTs. =right... i need some retail therapy for that! shop for cny clothes?! shant rant.
ytsd was fine. i attended my lects. great! dint pay attn for the last lect. cos he was really goin like a bullet train. pissed. so i jus started msgin.
open hse was great. see lotsa 'lil kids' goin arnd sch and stuff. was observin the uniforms they're wearing. i miss my gyss uniform, alot. arnd with the db the whole time. watch some performance, and some music jus makes you wanna make you dance with the beat. shiokedelic.
i dint do much. jus walkin arnd under the sun. a lil tug of war. the drowsiness was kickin in. was feeling slpy. it sure feels great seeing him 'hovering' arnd the area. it's the cool loo and partial smile that makes gurls goes weak. ((:
headed to su's place and gave her a surprise. ha! dozed off while watchin hbo. she's got this ear-piercin scream that makes my goose pimple stands. yikes! had a sinful dinner, but dint finish it. feelin fatt!! while su's got partially solid abs.
outta here, i'm jus uber tired and yet i'm tryin to go thru the tuts.

`thanxx JO! for givin me the bandana and the badge!!.. shant reveal your 'secret' here. HA!

blahh

have u ever filled in quizzes which ask, who's the first person u'd wanna share a good/bad news with?
i realise whteva things that's goin on in my life. she's the one that i talk to and stuff.
and when she sees him and feels on cloud 9'nup. she'd call me, just to tell me. (:
jus some things bothering her, which i dont know wht to do either.
cant solve it. well, i wish i'm a shrink thou.
it sure feels like shit when as her close friend i cant cheer her up.
screwitall`

gastric?

had this sharp pain the whole night. turned to the correct side, only to realise it's 6am. i jus have that sorta feelin that i dint slp at all. urggs. curled up in the bed and cldnt get up. applied the baby oil and i loove the smell of it. in bed till 2 plus felt better and glo msged me bout the back page of newpaper, nicholas is in it. advertising nyp open hse. so i dragged myself out to buy light lunch and flipped to the back of the papers. HA! not bad. but i miss the cool look of him. that's all.
ate and headed to polyclinic. aint that rich shits to go family doc. been a thousand yrs i went amk central. amk polyclinic's so upgraded now. it's really niceee. and the doc that i saw is...young? prolly early 30s. muahahas. jus had some thoughts in mind.. but shall be shhheshh bout it. ((: have gastric prob, too much acid or whts. lotsa med for everything. it's cheap cheap! consultation fee's only 4. aint that bad aftall. but it's embarrassing bout how the shitting stuff came all about. got my mc, and doc said that i shldnt do exercise for the nxt 3 daes! danng. i'll be back for thurs trng still. missing it. anws, wanted to go back ta sch for math lect, but it was endin.
shall spend my time at home goin thru tuts 1-5. quiz on thurs. studyyy!!

first day of the week...-_-

dint feel well when i woke up, but wth. i HAVE to go sch. for the first time for 8am classes i was on time. am the 3rd to reach. i'm nv in a good mood for 8am class. practically had the same expression thru out the lesson. darn. lunch at fj was aiight. 1/2 eaten chicken rice. afraid that i'll shit. well before that i went to the toilet. =so wanted to run home and go to the doc. it aint worth spendin that money.
at 12++ am hopin it's alrdy 5. bah! sorrie dah if i was whiney.. we were feelin so slpy. readin mag durin lect. slept aft the hr lect and 15 when math lect came in. was soo much more awake aft the short 'nap'. matrices drives pple kuku. gnna try doin some ques ltr anyhos.
thinking skills. i dont feel comfortable, he was shittin in front of me. whteva he said i'd jus roll my eyes off somewhere. the person i talk to are only guancong and andrew. urggs. i'm sorrie but the more i look the worse i feel. obese and loud. -_-'
saw daryl and del todae. that's the best thang for todae. *wide grins* daryl kor was rushin off thou. well, it's aft sm stuff that made me realise some stuff. and i'm kinda thinkin bout lotsa stuff these daes.
anyhos, headed to bishan for haircut. the salon su recommended seems i dont noe.. weird and unkept, and it's ex. beside the coffee shop.. but headed to #1salon. the hairstylist has got this einstien hairstyle. like woohoos, i was a great artist. HA! and he kept tryin to entertain me. trimmed my hair. not much diff. my slips flew away when i got off my sit. how kuku.
i was s'posed to meet CHIA suli for dinner. but that bitch was alrdy home. *snorts* she was still full. but well least she ate, dint want babeh to have dinner alone la. heh. shant meet her till fri. e public hols!

jazz: thanxxx! lurrving 'true' lots more when the lyrics seems to form the pic in my mind. and i'll tear. =( well i'm still shitting. gosh. yess i'm goin to sch. ((: shall see it's only the first dae of da week. 3 more daes till the hol and weekend's here. hooooray.

hairless..((:

day started off shitting agn ytsd. been 4 days. it's jus like if i dont eat, i wont shit.
wanted to bake cookie or cake. su was so lazy and stuff. dragged for darn long ended up meetin for dinner. it's more of linner.
she jus talk none stop. everything she's pissed about came out. well i suppose every family has their own inside life goin on that many might nv see. that includes you, you and you! right? i might see ur family as loving and perfect family but i wont noe wht's goin on in there. so is my family. and yess.. each family member too.
shopped arnd.. findin my clothes to shop for. bought the stuff we needed and headed off to su's place. wasnt feelin well ever since i sat down for dinner. giddyness. urggs.
felt funny at su's place. not the usual atmostphere. but well, went into the room and dint watch the match. talked from 8++-11pm? that's longgg. touched on all topics that came to mind.
that gurl's really.. a dirrty bitch. if her phone's not ans and she leaves it vibratin i'll know why. HA! and she was a pest the whole time at j8. pple in seiyu was givin that kinda look that i give kids who runs about shopping center. darn, we looked as if we were playin catchin pls. urggs. how embarrassing. why?! cos she was laughin at my phone's tone. right it's monotone. cannot isit? biggie deal that hers is polyphonic. *roll eyes*
it's another week and i cant wait for fridae...tan tan tan! sat... sea trng. i'm jus hopin i'm well enough to go for trngs. sucha weakling. darn.
i feel so hairless all thanx to veet! cleannn.
shall put some effort into my work to get me motivated in sch stuff. a darn reminder's here. =
why do you get the wrong attn sometimes? when the person you like doesnt like you. and the person you dont like, likes you? WHY? david asked me a question ytsd, wht do i want in my life?

get out

hate being sick cos i'll feel weak. even it's at home lookin out into the sun thinkin bout being at kallang, i start feelin giddy. i wonder if it has gotta do with the weather.
i love the sun
i want to train
i wanna see the gurls be with the gurls
meet babeh and cp.
hatee being home!!!
why do this to me.
i jus feel like cryin that i'm missing trng.
and sth else... stayin at home stink shits.
urgg, sch work. reports, projs, quiz, tests, tuts. bitach.

---

went to ndc. decision was made. had my x-ray, print tooth taken. it's embarrassing goin with dad. cos he commented lotsa sg govt and stuff. like so loudly in ndc. laughed loudly while watchin american's funniest video. -_-' guess wht.. and mrs ngiam [gyss's former principal] was sittin a sit away from me.
headed back to sch feelin cold under the hot sun.
copied notes and took a nap. feelin really cold while feelin hot on the outside. saw jazzie coming and chatted. i swear that missy's really fierce. command me to drink up the water cooler there. muahahs. esther and za came and they started their gym while i passed the books to chris. talked bout an hr. headed back to clubroom. and they wanted to measure the fats%, joined em. gotta do step up, pushups, situps. was on the athlete side. muahahs. ((: the gurls got a shock when i went up the weighin machine cos it was only 29.++kg. i wasnt la pls.. that's way too much aft all the shitting. hai "corrected" the machine. hahs.
left aft that..wasnt feelin any better. cabbed home..slept when i came home. head was painful shits. urggs. oh did i mention i spent the whole nights since thurs shitting?! diarrharoe. gawsh. whteva i eat or drink the nxt sec, i'll head st8 to the toilet. yes so i spent the whole evening on fri slping till this morning. still feelin sick. now includes my thoart and my left side of nose when breathing...am missing sea-trng. )= wth!
cant wait for nxt week to come.. least i'll see the gurls. even thou i've just met chia susu on weds but i'm missin her the nxt dae. goshh. and of cos cp... hvnt been hearin from her. but yes soon. ((: it's a public hol on fri!! yes.. only chia suli doesnt need to go sch. HA! how stupid. [it's btwn us]
tiger cup tmr... i'm stayin home.
later...

bloody cramps. urggs

sch was aiight. no idea wht analog was talkin about. =(
went to sch gym with zahidah, slack arnd. i was cyclin in there. bored and dint wanna put in energy into anything then.
saw allan tern and pricillia chan. OMG JO saw leslie kwok!!! *scream* = and she dint any pic of him other than her susilo. -storms- omg... i'd go so weak seeing him. [tempted to touch], those who were havin dinner jus now will know why. likeee urggg.. danng! nyp dint publicise well la. fcuk! saw those pics of the tsunami thing, it breaks my heart just by lookin how terrible each places had been destroyed by it.
day was followed being mono, moodless. was only brighten up when class's endin early, cos it'd means i wont be late for trng. how nice. poh choon's so nice to give me his comm skills book. can copy! but he went off withou lettin me see teenage where's taufik's featured in it. -hmphfs
sth happened, disappointed. within us, there's even this sorta thing that will happen.
dental appt tmr, goin to dad's office first. aft dental appt then will be headin back to sch.

i'm pms-y or wht. pimples breakin out. cant stand it!! lookin Ugleee shiats. cramp. term break's being brought up to week 8!!! fuckin shits. how does it feel like being 18 when uve gotta study for CTs?!! and i wont be able to club that week. i so wanna get high and dance. blastin five colours in her hair! woots. and dad?... listenin to jay chou's songs in the hall.

i want leslie kwok, i wanna get high, i hate stress. =(( a mth and a dae more.. to 18 and CTs. dread that day to come somehow.

su: you're the oppo of wht pple say you in my eyes. yess, cant wait to see ya agn. friday you dont need to go sch rights?!-personal joke. u noe wht i mean.

BF

cabbed to sch and pick up su to town. apparently we're lazy to take other transport. =x

• babeh's a vain pot, before gettin into the cab she asked me how was her hair. but well who isnt vain. ((: her hair's pretteh. it's on her anws!
• ondo was jus nice. babeh's watchin diet. i'm tryin to eat healthy. first time i see her liking kids. well just that lil gurl. for once she's nice! and 'played' with the lil gurl. -unbelievable
• saw allan wu, sharon au, ericia lee's sis, yvonne lim, wong lilin, her baby. her baby's adorable. seriously.
• heeren- a place to spot leandra for those leandra fans. she was everywhere we went. she had really loowwww voice. spotted her bestfriend at first. muahahas. shant be mean.
• chilled at starbucks. more catchin up. loove it
• saw the waxing gel at buttcheeks. cld be microwaved. how kewwl. but well it's kinda ex.
• went ova to taka, and i swear that chia suli's another auntie. cant stand her. such an embarrassment.
• leandra was at wisma too. gawdd. why not taufik? kaee or sly?
• babeh acc to all the watsons to check out sth. got it at bishan. =p
• asked and told babeh bout sth. and she had this major 'bf'. how insane pls.
• nxt time i'm seeing my darl' babeh, it's gnna be nxt week. countin down...7 more days. love ya bitchy babeh! smmmmuacks

"shall we dance" wil be out on 20jan. dont noe if it's sth like "honey" or wht. just hope it's nice.. cos i'm a pirate once agn. =one last thing, i realised the weather's good only on weds. cos last wed, it was sunny too!! gosh, we cld have swam or tan todae. nxt week.. but it's open hse. *snorts*
sighs. outta here... more tutorials.

music plugged` book of love.

nypdb' u light up my daeee

sch was aiights. i'm lost in math. need some help from classmate or pohchoon! but that guy cant promise me. wont blame him cos he's bzy with his stuff too. got reply from this junior. that moment, i jus stoned. cant concentrate durin math tut. was tryin thou. urggs, they're jus some lame damn excuses. *frowns*
felt gorgy since this morning. dad too. still went ahead with sch and trng. prolly not enough slp.
i dont noe why, i ALWAYS have this sorta feeling before trng. heartbeat wld jus go up and stuff. kinda scared of trng. but well, all was fine when i see my 'team-mates' wht a way to call them. but yesss my dearest pple that looove db too. *big wide grin* jo was boxed in her eyes accidentally by jazz. awww poor thang. muahhahs
ran 8 rounds agn. felt a strain at my shoulder. jazz said prolly i swing too much. was fine aft stretching thou. i was so lookin fwd to pool rowing!!! urggs. i wanted to correct my strokes and all, cos yea i aint good. BUT the seniors did gym. shucks. well, i tried goin up 6.25kg at the last set. not bad..muahhas. thanx jazz!! and ade for being there for me. esp jazzie ((:
debrief was great. like agn ((: i dont noe wht, but ben has my full respect for him and all. well he's the coach, but i really do admire him as a coach. he made us all laughed, some secret he shared *shhhheshh*, knowledge he impart. his experience and lots.
yes, if nyp's track eva go 'botak', look for jazz! pluckin the rubber thang out and throw. i got high aft the debrief. well, at least aft that we can be so crazy as we want.
lalalas, meetin chia suli tmr. i've gotta wait full bloody 2 hrs. shall go do my cms that i've missed and statement of abst thing. troublesome shits. and she told me she's got open hse meetin. yawnns. i'll wait, cos i miss that gurl toooo much that i'm gnna meet her tmr anyhos. precious babeh.

the blues

lesson's were aiight. bearly slept for an hr in the morning. tossin in bed for hrS, darn.
still dragged myself outta bed. was late for sch, the faster i walk the more pain i felt. cos the slippers strap were too thin.
was able to absorb math. muahahs. was answerin the ques verbally. i've got a math quiz tmr!!! i dint go lect last week.. i know nuts bout anything 'cept for wht she thought today. and mr hendi's so sturn and all.
i enjoy mind-mappin now. well thinkin and prob solvin. -_-.. worked with lect mates. the other gurl was absent and stuff. leavin me with 4 guys. why isit alwys me and him? gosh. i shld go china and stay there for coupls of months to master my chinese. or shld i speak chinese to everyone now. i do speak chinese cos i'm a chinese. thou it's not that peerfect but i do. period.

went town, i'm so in loove with the retro skirts. pretteh thangs. but it's unappropriate for sch thou. it's too short and light. hidden shops at far east are nice. ((:
saw the stupid striper steven lim at the zebra crossing. i jus stared at him, and listen wht he said la pls. wanted to turn back and say sth in front of him but was stopped. he's got a bloody whiny voice. farnie thang was that we thought of sayin "7 long zhu" and go off. he'd prolly get so excited?! shithole. *roll eyes*
found it at last. -phews. it's soooo nice. `qoo shitts.

mommie's so nice ta help me change my dental appt. how great, it's trng tmr. ((: i need to correct my strokes too. -you're not good enough

music plugged; five colours in her hair

tilt ya head back

ytsd dinner was great. walked arnd. some left aft. leavin me, nisa, stef, syam, jeremy. went to esplanade for a lil while. went to the roof and chill. hvnt been there for a long time and dint noe the roof top change sooo much. it's beauutiful can. ideal place to bring your date. watched tiramisu band performing. the vocalist's cranky shits. ((:

gnna change appt for dental. dont wanna skip lessons. mom's making the call pretendin she's me. accordin to her, she sounds like me. pls! pretty packed timetable. 8-5pm.. by the time i end sch they've alrdy close. kind mommie's calling.
not goin for swimming trng. findin a chance to tell jy. i'll miss the chance of competition. forever. )= but well, it's still better for me to focus on just one thing, db.
dreads comm skills. body aches. i cant even raise my arm fast. been walkin arnd tryin to 'protect' my arms from being hit. darn.
sch's on anyhows. cld someone pls psycho me to love sch.
right outta here.
You stand there looking at me (at me)
I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)
You know exactly what's on my mind (yeah yeah)

you're not good enough

i dont noe but it seems like aft trng ytsd. i'm pretty stressed up.
wht ben said while we rowed with the guys is still in my mind. it aint goin away.
ben: "rmbr wht i told you. you're not good enough!!"
the races that are coming up. sava sprint? not confirm. still db festival or isit dumplin festival.
that's a totally diff race, a 850-900km race.
cant slp right now, once i shut my eyes ben words will jus come to mind.
wanna noe how did i wake up this aftnn.. i was dreamin bout dragonboat.
i dont noe if i'm thinking too far or whts.
i've gotta build up on my fitness and stuff. endure.
i'll be good enough to row and give it all out.

first sea trng ((:

woke up from all the aches at 1.14pm. havnt have my lunch and all. hurrily bathed and bought bananas. cabbed to bishan. thank god i wasnt late. reached kallang at 2.27pm -_-

i swear i aint gd with chinese name. other than cp's. [smiles] i actually mixed up with the china gurl's name and another junior. gosh. that explains the question that was in my mind when i called her. how come her voice's so low? doesnt sound china to me. i feel darn fuckin stupid. cos i thought i'm callin the china gurl all along!! and speakin to her in chinese. and she replied in such gd english. gosh i'm sucha fool. totally embarrassed myself there. darn.

walked to kallang ssc. was walkin in front with jil and jane. i guess i dont really like socializing. seeing mel and jazz talkin to the juniors. i dont noe how they go about. but i just cant? no ideas wht to talk to em and stuff..hopeless me. -roll eyes- when we entered ssc, npdb-guys were just THERE. woohooos. eyecatchin pls. this guy with blue singlet.. suppose he's a senior. think i saw him at regetta. they've got bods and some looks. cant help it la..*grins. mmms, but there's a few guys juniors that's quite goodlookin? muahahas. (:

seeing the new gurls paddles "flyin" here and there. it's a scene that i've nv seen before. now i noe how diff it is correctin strokes. i was in their shoes once. well i'm still in. it feels weird teachin the gurls their strokes and all. i just think that i'm still aint good enough to actually teach them. impart some stuff that wht jo and the seniors told me before... guildin them in the water.. went further down and slips got stuck in the mud IN the water. i was stretchin my hand to help jil i was tryin to grab hold of denis cos i was also fallin off. how kuku were we in front of the juniors. and they were guys. damns.

joined the guys in the big boat. -seniors. was shagged 1/4 thru. was askin farhan if we're stopping. and he laughed. -_- we're not! bloody hell he u-turned and went all the way. charged when we're so far away. THANKs to those pple encouragin me to go on. pple like: jil, jane, hid, farhan. thank alot alot. i guess ben used 'that' to spike us too. i was cursing and swearing. just go.. go on. i felt the boat flying. felt great, but aint happy with my performance. fitness prob. gnna work on it.

went suntec with jazz, jil, hid, esther, munting, mel. mel got her shorts and jazz went off without tellin us. *snorts* 6 of us went to nydc to eat. the waitin time was damn fuckin long pls. i was practically stoning there cos i'm achin all ova and drained. askin me to stand there!?! urggs. still the gurls have got lots more energy to talk. howeva, i dont. got our ass settled down and food came. it's heaven pls. we talk bout anything.. hahas. laughed our hearts out. we talk darn loudly.. we bitched bout some pple. we talk bout fear factor while eatin. muahahas. it's superb.
i'm lovin it. i guess this is sth i will never experience in swimming. at least the gurls make me feel 'homely'. awwww. was so funny when jil's friend chocolate was endin work. *winkies*

proj to do. i've yet to start. i'll prob skip the dinner. aft nydc needta pay jil, yet to pay jo the shirt money. i can forget bout dinner. like i said i dont like socializing. so yea, the same old ques. how's sch.. how's life, blah blah blah. i'd rather shop with su and cp or stay home.
it's so swt to have someone pickin u up aft work or trng. it's all those actions that are swt lil thang. lookin at those couples sitting arnd fountain of wealth, chit-chatting away. just makes me wonder when's my turn?..smtimes one jus wants to be love, it's that sorta feeling.
seeing how some gurls treat their gurlfriends, how swt they are. it set me thinking that guys can be outta this world. even she's got a gf. )= well i do have two dearest gfs of cos.

su: the old sayin says, if there's a will, there's a way. it's how much you want it. and sure wht i'm gnna teach u is superbly easy. no running or wht is needed. ((: cant wait to see ur red hair. woohoos. it's been thousand yrs that i've last seen u.
jil: gurl, pls dont feel bad at all or whtsoeva. u wldnt harsh on me aiights. instead i wanna thank you so much for remindin me. thanks for the encourgement in the boat. *huggs* enjoy the dinner with u. chocolate's not bad. at least from wht you told us. muahahs. fill me in on tues yays.

laaaaa

lookin at jazz'a photo album. omg her friend's place niccce. ((: i dream myself stayin there. *roll eyes* anyhos, the black labrador puppy's shooo cute. i like that innocent looks from puppies. my dog has it too. thou he's turnin 4 soon. but when he messes up his fur.. he'll look sho darn innocent. my baby...
anws, whole bod's aching. cant get up ytsd morn. endin goin for programming only.
after goin for first proggin' in 3 weeks. i think computer's rather stupid. it aint straight fwd at all. u gotta key in so much more rubbish. complicated shiats. duh
felt like dressing nicely todae thou. outta 5 daes of sch it's the only one dae that i feel like dressing up. on trng days, i cldnt be much bothered to actually dress up.
came home, cousin came. watched tv the whole time. how cool. lappie was occupied by him. so there's nth much i can do. comm skills book review and web review which i've yet to touch. i've got no idea how to go bout doing it anyhos.
shall do it ltr aft sea trng. MR SUN pls be out ltr durin trng. it's raining right now, hopefully there's sun. feel yucky turning fair. ewwww.
yupps, i've just gotta constantly remind myself bout comm skills. cos when sth more happenin than that i'll totally put it aside.
decided to help out in car-washing. they'd sure end up sabo-ing pple in the end. *snorts*
glad i'm meetin the gurls on sun!! *grins* still thinkin bout dinner. to go or not to go.
it'd be better doing window shopping with cp while su shops. we'll be her fashion consultant. muahhas.
rights, nth much ta blog. i'm jus so glad that sea trng's back. and i'll be meetin the gurls soon.

su` ignore wht they say. i'll find ways to help u lose it. aiights? miss u heaps

missing it.

at last i'm settled down. =\ prolly be long entry
-----------sch`n blah
right, dragged myself outta bed. dint wanna miss another day of sch. hehs. tutorials and elearning. it's really cocked up. u cant access it at home!!? that reminds me of comm skills. so many proj ICAs. yikes.
i seriously Thank God It's Friday!!! this week's ending. sea-trng returns. ((:
i kinda dread sundae.. i wld prolly help out in the car wash for the tidal wave with mumbo. 8am. yawnns. then there's this photoshoot thingy. and yes, dinner with sec schmates. still thinkin bout that thou. i'm like b.r.o.k.e. htf do u expect me to go there and eat? *snorts*
i'm prolly givin up piano and swimming. cos i wanna row. there's no need for drummer cos there's this new gurl who's skinnier. -smiles- so yes train and row row row.
and get a job. crumpler shop? jus dont wish to see those out-kast wannabe. i'll call up some no. which i saw in the papers.
went to north canteen to eat. classmates wants to see gurls la huhs. when i jus entered the canteen i saw that guy whom ben kor asked me to approach to ask em ta join. boyish lookin grp. awww. stepped into the canteen and i saw him. white and red addidas shirt. yr 3 student. pretty alright. the whole of nyp there's least one nice lookin guy.
friend went to get wei ze's classmate no. buncha [i dont noe wht]. ended up she dint give. had a great laugh.
-----------trng
not exactly shagged from trng ytsd. did only two station of weights. -sulk-
will anyone miss trng? right other than jazz. she'll get addicted to trng.
cos i somehow miss working out. run and burn those fattie fats off. build muscles and become fitter.
the 2 guys me and mel approached on the way to sports complex.. they CAME!! i was so happy ta see them that i jumped n jumped up to mel. hehs. i still rmbr their name, melvin and kin. *smirks*
15 new faces i see. 8 round of track we ran. 100 push-ups. holdin of last 10. 100 sit-ups.
it's the new gurls that actally made me go on. thinkin they can do 6 rounds i can go just last 2 rounds. of cos the speed went up. stitches, but who cares. *roll eyes* pushups and situps were nuts. pray i wont ache ltr. the gurls were so sweet to do pushups with us. they're only required to do 50. that's team spirit man!
and i'm seriously not use to 'senior' or whts. muahahs. i've only joined bout 2 mths? since aft common test. sound so lao-jiao thang. but it's em that kept me goin. this china gurl in my gym grp. no idea whys. but yea china. but she's gd alright! determination's there. whereas another gurl, jus alright? i dont noe. prolly cos she's split from her friend. she's swt lookin missy thou. gaga shorter than me. i like her rebonded hair. ((:
ben was in quite joking mood. alright yea, prolly jus dint wanna scare the new peeps away. had laughters. kinda first debreif from him that he actually made us laugh.
i'm uber happy. cos we're joinin surf and sweat! wanted to surf and some guy run. but to think agn. i cant surf or paddle for nuts. so am joinin ultimate frisbee. and jo better teach me how to play cos she said she's goin to. *grins* goodie bag and pls.. the sun!
i'm excited bout trng tmr. i pray for sun pls. the bloody weather's turnin me to a white chicken. -_-
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i dont know why. i guess feelings for him has really dieded off. which is good. at least i feel okay talkin to her bout him. i dont know bout her thou. but it seems fine i guess. i feel more comfortable to approach her, things that we say too.

su: we'll go town. u shop and i find job yea. ((: we shall save on food and all. we've been spendin lots on that. save money...for da bag. i miss ur mommie and tiger...just wanna see ya real soon. will talk to u bout it. and thanks babeh
cp: we'll go townin one dae alrights. make some dae free... then we'll shop with su to get her WANTED! stuff ((: yupps. maybe when u work less.. i'll be workin.. and yes week's gnna be hectic. )=

money matters..=\

I'll always be around you
keep an eye on you
cos my patience is strong
and I won't let you run
cos you are the only one

the words that were once said. whts with me to open up those mails? i've got no idea.
i'm still doin my tutorials. -_- there's no need to finish all. but well doin those tutorials are good arent they?
i've got my letter for the orthodontics. waited for bloody hell 3 full yrs, at last it's here. the longwaited letter. first appt's on mon. feel like bringin it fwd so i wont miss the lects. who cares bout comm skills anw. pouts.
but, wht's stopping me is that my parents has gotta pay for it. just losta financial things goin on at home. i'm thinkin of working. at least to help my parents? provide allowance for myself. prolly pay part of the orthodontics. i dont wanna wait another 3 yrs.
lotsa things are into consideration. if i were to work it'd means quitting of both ccas' and puttin piano away at the moment. *screams*
lookin out for part-time job now thou. first appt's on mon. feel like bringin it fwd so i wont miss the lects. who cares bout comm skills anw. pouts.
i'm in dilemma. seriously. -cries. just explains the headache.

way bad

i'm so not feelin well these days. days that slp at 4am. gosh. i shld prolly pop some pills to help me slp. urggs. the cramps i'm havin and also aches all ova my body? i dont noe why but the joints and now my neck aches aft swimming. =( see a sinseh soon. fcukin migraine's back
i'm at su's place doing work. i cant do work at home! that explains why i'm here.
waitin for her mom to eat.
anyhos, if u read smone blog, doesnt mean you know bout someone's life or whtsoeva. you just dont.
i'm so glad to have su n cp. we'll simply talk whteva things. i mean whteva. ((:
i dont noe but we can bitch, complain and whine. they'll bitch, complain and whine with me.
my 2 ladehh. iluu*

love

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times, and bad times

I'll be on your side forever-more

That's what friends are for

goes out to my 3 ladehhs.

keep smiling and shining. cos i'd be by your side.

smmmuacks* ilus'

to go or not to go

only went for comm skills and went for recruitment drive the whole dae.
waited for swim trng to start.
it's worse than db?
i dont know and both mentally and physically tired.
this is the result of too much leisure swimming.
senior said sth that strucked me. there'd be a pt of time that i need to give full commitment to one. they werent be in comp this yr? *pouts.

sth that brought my morale so so down. one aft another. i shld have jus went on with it. it's jus too late to say all these. at that pt, it totally suck. this guilt in me. =
she's been weird. jus makes me wonder who's on the line. things arent goin very well at home either. electronics stuff been sealed. gotta pay $600+ to get it back. urgg, i'm so dyin to noe.
perhaps ignorance's really a bliss.

su*babeh: they're the if onlys. ure a missy babeh. ;] we'll meet up on weds yea.. least i'll get my halfdae rest then. ohhh am i nuts or whts? but yess.. i wanna see more of you. one more day!
e more you notice ur hair everydae. you wont think it's growing. it is la, unless ure not a human. muahahs. hehs.
cp ladehh: swim swim swim. i've got this phobia to swim now. but anyhos, since ure gnna swim. shall join ya to dip.

norm lazey day

happy new year. a better yr i hope. ((:

had dinner at sakae at j8. decided to just spend the eve eatin and chilling at someone's place. so yupp had sakae and headed to su's place. watch Quill and Beautiful Boxer. it's nicee! came out halfway to say happy new year to pple outside who were playin mahjong. that includes su. she took over her dad. then headed back. cp slept and the adults ended the mahjong. went for early breggie at 4.30am. babeh's parents are hella farnie as alwys. (: slept till 1.30pm. babeh and her mom had started preparing lunch. felt so bad for slpin till soo late. it's yummilicious. brocolli with scallop, fishhies, omelette with ham -cooked by babeh. yumms.

nth much on a new year. rushed home cos bro said my dog was missing. fool. he was home all the time pls. third aunt invited us to her place for her bdae buffet. it's aunt's family and we're her in-laws side. both family know each other well. there's jus tonnes of lil kids. i jus sat arnd. they were entertained by cheaper by a dozen and shrek 2 the movies. well least aunt's nephew's like 18 i guess. from his look. called terence. not those db guys body but fit. well boy, they're just for my eyes. more cousins are joinin my eldest coussie in wake boarding.. kewwl. but it bloody hell 90 bucks PER hr aiights. damnn. if my dad's filthy rich, i'd join. coussie used to be plump and all. aft meetin her bf she became feminine, into sports. she's fit now right. pretteh pretteh.
went out to get sth with mom and coussie. they talked bout lotsa stuff.
on our way home, went ova to chomp chomp with coussie and nephew. that ediot. *roll eyes*
12, 1am is the best time to go chomp chomp. cos there's lotsa youngsters there!.. muahahs. and they arent those bengs. they're that kinda richie kinds. boy-watchin and eatin at the same time.

nth much. am suppose to copy notes and finish up my report. but i've got nth bout to do up the report. it's for comm skills. -ewks. wht else. yes and another proposal to hand in tmr.
swim trng tmr. will it not rain tmr? a friggin cold night.

called the 2 db gurls that's joining. one has got night class till nine -_- she sound kinda swt? gd impression. the other gurl.. phone was off, music that was recorded is chinese. rigght. yes chinese. she returned the call and before i said attire she jus YAYAYA away. fcukin pissed. well, still kept my tone nice. not at the attire.. telling her there'd be first trng at where.. she started ya-ing. piece of shit. wanna see how she looks like. darn i'm pissed. whteva, sch tmr. and recuitment drive. sadly to say from my mon-weds i cant skip any lesson. it's all lect lect lects!! the 3 most dreadful dae of the week i'd say. 2 hrs break thou. shall help out.
mms, wanted to keep it short. i'm jus uber long-winded.
outtt.